Wednesday, September 18, 2013

8th

He turned around and affirmed his gaze long enough to make it clear he knew what he was getting into.

"Hey," he said as if it were the last thing he would say in a sentence.
"Hi," came a hesitant, but swift reply.
"It's been long, hasn't it?" he continued, with every word sounding as if it were to bring about the conclusion of the conversation.
"Yes. We've come far."
"Eight years - whatever that is in miles, it must be far, right?"
A polite nod ensued.
"I've been telling you everything, haven't I?" he paused for less than what would ask for a reply, and continued, "sometimes with words, other times with silence."
He stopped at what wasn't a question, but it implored to be replied to.
"Silence. Yes. But that's not telling me everything, then, is it?"
"I'll be honest-"
"-oh you are."
He took another deep stare, one that depicted the color of his eyes.
"You make me - nevermind." He shook himself midway, but continued. "I'll be honest, there were crazy times. It's not like I didn't want to tell you. But the days just kept passing me by. And I thought-"
"Thought I'd understand, right?"
He stood there, desperate to jump in and nod his head and release an affirmation in a mixture of relief and joy. But he stood there. With no giveaway.

But he was known well enough to have been read.

"I did. I understood. And I understand."

His gaze turned into a sigh of relief - a shimmer of joy and hesitation and grief and a song of longing for acceptance - as his tear ducts began to loosen up. But he was well known to hold them sealed as well.

But he must have left the duct tape home. Because a tear was almost shaping up to race forth.

"Happy birthday, dear."

He wiped it off before it even got a chance.

She didn't.

"Where's my gift?" she spoke as he turned her tears into laughter.

"Oh it'll be here any minute," he said with his lips inching into a smile. He raised his arm in a jolt to pull down the sleeve of his coat, and glanced into his watch.

"It'll be right here."

Sunday, July 21, 2013

General uninterestedness

The ocean floor is hidden from your viewing lens
A depth perception languished in the night
All my life I've been sowing the wounds
But the seeds sprout a lachrymal cloud

Friday, July 19, 2013

Severance pay

I got some troubles
          but they won't last
  I'm gonna lay right down
     here in the grass
               And pretty soon 
     All my troubles will pass
     'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo
 shoo-shoo-shoo
shoo-shoo-shoo-shoo
     Sugar town

keeplyingtoyourself.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Memo to self

Come to grips with yourself, man. It's all going to be okay.
No. I don't want to. And it's not going to be that way.
You know it will be. It has to be. It can't be like this forever.
You know, that's what scares me the most. Because I've seen that word. Forever. 4ever.
Sigh. Abhas. Don't do this.
You can't stop me.
But I don't want to stop trying.
Yeah. I didn't want to stop trying either.
Okay, let's take another look at the situation.
Okay.
Sigh. You're not even looking.
I don't want to talk to anyone.
Well I'm right here. And I'm not going. And I'll wait. Because it'll be worth it.
Thanks for being here.